Oh, you poor thing. You do try so hard, don't you, to act right, to be calm, to not drive others away with your unexpected anger? You're always earnestly striving to improve yourself, tune up your relationships and make yourself clear.
You're convinced that if others could only understand your point of view, if you could only find the right way to express yourself, that all the awkwardness between you and everyone else would disappear. Sorry, but it's not that easy. Think of it like this: You're a square peg trying to fit into a round hole. You struggle with arrogance, jealousy, insecurity -- all the qualities you know make you less attractive to the types who turn you on and that drive away anyone who does agree to date you. You've got a good match out there and you know it. But you can't seem to stop trying to explain yourself once and for all to anyone who will listen. Nothing you can say will work the trick, though. The key is in your behavior. Are you delightful to be around, loving, giving, interested in what your date says and does? No? If not, nothing you can say will work. The best way to get positive attention from others is to give plenty of it yourself.