There have been times in your past relations when you felt like a lab rat. Was it your imagination, or did your partners kinda enjoy pushing your buttons? Your limits were tested, your reactions gravely noted.
And when you finally fell into a towering rage, they turned off, cutting off the interaction as swiftly as a knife blow. It's all left you feeling confused and tender. But don't try seeking soft comfort in the arms of a lover who'll despise you for what they view as your weaknesses. It's time to stand up for yourself.If it's any comfort, the problems you experienced in your past couplings weren't your imagination. Your lovers really did have a rather cruel and secretive side, controlling and withholding. The thing you have to accept is that there's a huge -- if unrealized -- part of you that digs the semi-abuse. You like the challenge of trying to tame a powerful lover. You like having a partner who won't let you walk all over them. And the very fact that affection is doled out in such small doses makes it so heady that you get addicted. Don't fight it. Submit. Go along, get along. Speak for yourself and you'll find that your ideal partner treats you more like the intelligent human that you are instead of a science experiment.