You're a true mystery. No matter how close anyone tries to get to you, there's always something you hold back. Past partners could see it in your eyes and feel it in the way you held yourself when you talked, but they could never get it out of you.
It's all part of the control you seek in relationships, the withholding of certain parts of yourself, even in the most intimate of situations. And you can't blame your exes for trying to draw you out, and then eventually giving up. After all, it's a brave and noble person who would keep trying to force emotional intimacy, even when you've made it clear that your thoughts and emotions are your own.The bitter truth is that if you truly want to gain the intimate relationship you seek, you're going to have to pony up with those deep, dark secrets. You might be surprised to find that the reaction isn't as shocked as you were sure it was going to be...which could be a bit of a disappointment. Gasp -- what if you find that you're just like everyone else? You think you're the only one holding such dreadful thoughts, but you're not. So don't get offended when the partner of your dreams responds with, 'Oh, is that all?' Learn to appreciate the fact that you're not alone. You don't always have to be such a mystery.