Pity your past lovers, because you've been awfully hard to live with. You were constantly annoyed with them, viewing their dreamy, drifting nature as lazy and unmotivated. You demanded changes, but what you asked for was both unreasonable and unkind.
You chose lovers who couldn't match you intellectually or physically. They weren't the mover and shaker type like you. Instead, you chose yourself sweet, well-meaning, lovable folks who just happened to be a little spacey and emotional. The shame was that you chose with your eyes open, and then you demanded something different.Papering over the problems you've created would be a lot easier if you accepted reality and stopped wishing for something else. Your lovers will always be a little out-there -- and that's part of their charm, is it not? They give you permission to slow down a little. So why don't you? Just relax and allow yourself an idyll. Your ideal lover has much to teach you if you could stop blustering and demanding what you think you want. Embrace the calm. Wallow in the dreaminess. Just let go; there's a sweet release awaiting you in your perfect relationship.