You feel perpetually caught between the need to be liked and the desire to be respected. For some reason, in your mind, you can't have them both. This shows up in many different areas of your life, including your ability to give and receive love, how you charge for your services and how you take care of your appearance.
You have very high standards and are quite discriminating, perhaps being overly critical of both yourself and others. Neither you nor anyone else can live up to your exacting standards, so you chronically feel unworthy, unlovable and undesirable. Needless to say, this will lead to romantic inhibitions and undercharging for your work, since you don't feel truly deserving of love or money. This fearful attitude is definitely one that can be overcome with time and effort. You'll have to adjust those stratospheric expectations, scaling them down to a level where they can actually be achieved. Once you start fulfilling some of your own ideals, you'll be able to relax and let in the love that you crave, without feeling like you must sacrifice more and more to have it.