Deep-seated and perhaps unresolved issues with your father have created authority issues for you. Dear old Dad probably didn't or wasn't able to give you the type of parenting that society expected or that you felt you deserved. He may have been prominent in his absence, either physically, in overwork, or in some other factor that made him unavailable to you.
The upshot of this is that you have difficulty making your own path in life. When it comes to organizing your daily work there are two extremes. One is, 'Tell me what to do and I'll do it,' as if you can't figure out for yourself what has to be done. The other extreme is, 'You're not the boss of me.' Whatever your superiors tell you to do, you do something else, using them as a platform to resist authority. Either way, you refuse to make your own choices about what tasks to do, or how to organize your time. How to escape this unfortunate dilemma? Take matters into your own hands. You've got enough intelligence and experience to see what needs to be done. So -- do it! Don't wait to be told. When you become your own boss, your life will proceed more smoothly.