At some point in your life you are likely to experience a crisis of faith. Although you test the waters, something within you holds you back from participating fully in experiences that are religious, spiritual or otherwise significant. It's almost as if you fear losing yourself in something much bigger than you are, not realizing that it's in the surrender of self to the universe that transcendent experiences occur.
You are serious about wanting to understand connecting principles and the bigger picture, but your view tends to be limited and structured. At some point, taking the leap of faith into the unknown can be an incredibly liberating experience. One thing's for sure: You are incredibly concerned with finding the truth. You may pursue this by advanced studies in comparative religion, philosophy, or related fields, and you would make a very effective teacher due to your ability to organize and present complex information. Work in the legal profession could also appeal to you, because you value integrity and morality, and you could be considered very wise in these areas as you mature.