You grabbed a live wire when you found this lover, and you felt the effects the entire time you were together; you were electrified, yet stunned. You worried that you couldn't trust your sweetie. You wondered what they were up to when you were not there to watch.
You may even have caught yourself doing a little more snooping than you felt really comfortable with. The problem, of course, lay in the time when you were together, not when you were apart. If things were really great between you, you'd have had nothing to worry about. So...were they? Or was your jealousy and insecurity tearing you apart? Did you demand to hear 'I love you' when your mate wasn't in the mood to say it? Did you ask for promises that, unwillingly given, could never be given?You could have buckled yourself in and enjoyed the ride. Your lover was always going to shake things up. You could never have had the calm security that you thought you wanted. But another name for security is boredom, and you didn't want that either. This lover didn't settle for anything less than passion and zing, and if you had chosen to hang around, that's just what you'd have gotten. Sometimes you have to make hard choices.