They say that misery loves company, but in your case it was the company you were keeping that made you miserable. Who gave you the idea that you were small, weak, meek, easy to overlook? Someone in your past gave you quite a working-over, and you still bear the psychic bruises.
That's why you handed your lover the leash and gave up control. You let your lover make all the decisions. You spent all your energy going places your sweetie wanted to go, ignoring your own desires. But those stifled impulses popped up anyway, in the sullen resentment that you showed to your lover. It was so unattractive! But you were stuck in a cycle and couldn't seem to break free.The key to altering your troublesome situation lay in looking inside yourself. What is it you really want from your life? What did you want from your relationship, from your lover? You needed to define your vague longings and give them a voice. Your lover was willing to listen, but couldn't guess what you needed unless you were clear. That clarity would have translated into more respect for you, and better feelings all around. Here's a lesson with broader implications in your life; Clearly say what you want and need, and you're very likely to get it.