Did you snoop? Surreptitiously glancing at computer screens, checking numbers in cell phones? There was a core of mistrust at the heart of this relationship, and it made waves.
If felt as though the two of you were pulling apart, as if there were obstacles between you. When you lay down to sleep at night, your thoughts were restless, suspicious; when you held your lover tight you were possessed with an animalistic desire to hold and bite and devour. You were addicted to the highs and lows of your relationship, and you needed your fix.Will it make you feel better to hear that much of the tension was caused by your own watchful filtering of events? Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar, and all your tense questioning and strange, off-putting declarations brought more energy to certain situations than was reasonable. You needed to try to stay focused on the other areas of your life -- work, family, friends. Calming your compulsion to envelope your lover was all about draining away some of the anxiety. If you had backed off just a little, there would have been a peace in relaxing your grip.