Your lover said you were paranoid. You were imagining things. You were irrational, crazy, overreacting.
But the plain truth was that everything you feared was actually the case. Your lover wasn't as trustworthy as you'd have liked. Clandestine flirtations, or worse, outright infidelities, were a distinct possibility. You knew it in your heart, but tried to deny it, and the result was a war between your heart and mind that had you quite perplexed and upset. But then, you didn't set this one up right from the very start, did you? You got involved too quickly -- you certainly got physical without thinking first. Frequently you got in situations where you and your lover were quibbling nonstop, both of you unwilling to compromise or cooperate. The answer was within you. The lover you chose would never have been one of those cozy, sit-by-the-fire-and-purr types. You would never have gotten a calm, content connection with this one. But who wanted calm when you had fire and excitement? If this was the way you wanted it, you could have embraced the tumult. Let go of your desires to control.