Even though you feel connected and devoted to this person, there will always be something that obscures you and your friend from each other, as if a thin veil hangs between you and separates you. Understanding you will be no easy task, in part because you'll never quite give complete, straight information about yourself. Part of you may enjoy this elusive dynamic, or perhaps it will be utterly unintentional.
You'll have to make a conscious effort to be as honest and forthright as you can. Let your friend know you as the person you are inside, despite any anxieties you may have about that process. You'll both be better off in the long run if you insist on clear, honest communication.